i know there's been a really long time since i update. =DD
okok, I'm gonna start,

1. i pass my driving theory test, whee. and i haven get the L card, cause i haven even go for the almali thing.
2. my birthday had passed, =D well, thanks everyone for making it a day.
3. i think i got the msg that i'm chosen to attend NS, and now i still cant believe it's true. and people said it's good. perhaps.
4. yeah, now is monthly test and i just screwed up my 2nd paper, bio. damn u period!!
5. i dont know what else. hmmmm...

well, i know i had been telling myself not to stop loving, not to stop believing things. cause the more u love, the more u learn and u know yourself best. i never tot for getting hurt and get depress after something really big happened. i know there is a necessarity to know what's going to happen, the need to think ahead. but i don't like to listen all the crap that is not true. i believe in myself, what I'm feeling now is true. u can say I'm stupid, stubborn and totally out of my mind. well yeah, i AM. i know after this, im not gonna feel anything stronger and love even harder. it's like the first time u trying to finish one shoot of whiskey at one go, and the second time, u got used to it. =DD it's cool. =DD

ok, i know i crap a lot. i been going through a lot nowadays. i know exactly why and how is that feel about what u feeling now. i went though that, trust me. u know i cant really treat everybody equally. I'm kinda tired of caring what's the aftermath when i did this to u or i did that to him. i cant control that. i tot u will understand. you know how hurt is that for me when i see those tears rolling in his eyes when u did that? i never see him like that before. i just don't know what to say.i tried to apologize but i think sorry doesn't really make u feel better. make it up? i dont know how. it's never gonna be the same.