I WANT THIS!!!!



if u guys see this in any bookshop or library please tell me. i really wanna read it.
both my sister read it when i was 10. that time i wanted to read one but just cant. because the book cover looks scary. A CLOWN, my friend! A CLOWN!! yes yes, i scared of clawn, since i am a kid. i will run away when i see any. so shoosh.

okok go back to the topic. my sis bought the 2nd book of this series and didnt buy the 1st one. so i have to borrow. T.T so anyone who got this book please borrow me or tell me where i can get it. please!!!

this is all about the china trip.

on the plane.




reach China and the next morning take bus to Xin Yi



in the bus, usually bus is sit one rite?! but this is different! sleep one. got bed some more. my cousin was like, wth?!


>my cousin.=D

nephew.(so cute) didnt he look like putting his hands on his heart?! LOL.

mommy and daddy.

after about 5 hours of journey, we reach Xin Yi.
we took this to the hotel, feels like Thailand. LOL.





this is so called my uncle in china.he is smoking with the bamboo. cool huh?!


the next day we go into the kampung.
the first thing we saw was..this




then after that we go sembayang. go to the grave and pray of course.
this is where my grandparents live be4 they went to Malaysia. that fella with the hat is my sis(i think)

on the way, we saw cow, my cousin in china own it. that child is so called my nephew. funny rite?! LOL.



when we pray :-

long time didnt see my dad laugh like that ad. =D





TO BE CONTINUE....

you came into my life and turned it upside down, you flipped me around and showed me things i’d never known to exist. you taught me how to do things, i never believed i could do. and you reminded me that anything is possible. when my days were hard and sleeping was impossible, you were there for me at the strangest of hours, waiting and ready to comfort me. to make me laugh and just lay with me until i fell asleep, and to make up silly stories to make me smile on my journey to dream-land. but you came into my life as quickly as you left. and just as i was confused as to why i deserved you to begin with, i’m now laying in my bed, confused as to why i deserved to lose you. perhaps my “thank you” notes were too few, or my “i love you so much” phone calls were too scarce. this, i wish i knew, but fear i will never know. and now, i’m still unsure of where you went, and i’m unsure as to why you’ve gone there… but wherever you are, whatever you’re doing… i hope there’s someone beside you, making you as happy as i wish i could have made you. - by littleteaspoon.tumblr.com

I tot everything turns out right.
Too bad that this would not last long.

I am so sorry
That i'm real,
Wanted to tell so much
But what is really matters here?

I am so sorry
For being not so playful enough
To lose in this game

I am so sorry
For being afraid,
Afraid of losing
Just because i always got what i want at the end.

I am so sorry
To take everything seriously;
I dont have much different
If i want to compare with her.

I am so sorry
That i am not sorry
About all the things i had mention just now.
Because that's the way i am.

Just felt truely sorry to myself,
That i am just so easy to be deceived by people.


PS, please dont talk to me about scouts stuff in this holiday. execpt for the COH member of course. thank you.
PS, i still believe in the secrets among the universe so i am not giving up.

HOLIDAY ALREADY!!!

yeah, erm just went hang out with my girls yesterday. we had lots of fun. further info people go to pik sue's, waiyan's, or maybe sit wai's blog. lazy to talk about. cant forget the face when waiyan cant get the song to the right tune. LOL. and i cant forget the scene that the rich dude ask the car engine to start.(in 2010 movie). that's the funniest part of the movie. haha. u really have to watch 2010!! if u haven do so, please.

gosh, i am gonna have so much fun in this holiday. Daddy said we are going to a vacation again!! in Lumut, anyone?? u just have to pay for the transport and the food. the hotel is FOC.(very beautiful hotel)LOL.got very big swimming pool, very nice beach, can see the sunrise and bla bla bla... well, i am just saying it for fun. maybe going only. dont know yet. =D

and and and, everything is just stick with the plan. hey hey, this time my plan didnt go wrong. not even once. because my plan is------no plan. cool huh?! forgive me, i am in a really good mood! HAHAHA..



oh yeah, i just upload that for fun. i think waiyan u also agree with the statement rite?? =D

well, yeah exam is over.

i really dont take this final exam seriously wei. i mean i didnt study as much as i did in mid year. results will be better? i dont know, school is going to post it. yeah post it. if my dad got the letter and he ask why my results so bad i gonna bang him with the reason he forced me to china.

yeah, exam is over. plans??
plan to lepak at home, wanted to watch movie in my sis laptop but she set security code already, too bad. gonna work for my mom. then maybe go to camps. maybe. oh yeah PEOPLE!!! PLEASE SUPPORT BREAK-THRU CAMP!! there is only RM30 if u stay in school and not going to the jungle part. if u are interested please call any of the COH member pls. ur attendance is much appreciated. FYI, i changed my phone number already, if u wanna know please get it from me. dont ask why i change i am tired of answering this question. something new please.

i got a lot to say, but i dont know who i can tell and i dont know how to start.
this feeling started since yesterday. urgh. anyway, thanks for trying to made me feel better and made me calm down. sometimes, maybe u think that u could had done nothing, but then that really mean a lot to me. when u look me in the eyes and telling me everything is ok, i just felt a big relief. i am not saying thank you. cause i dont want us to repeat this situation again but i am glad that u did that.

is raining and i heard thunder. the next morning i will still see the stars when i look up to the sky, they shines made me felt relief, cause everything is still the same. =D

exam exam exam.
just tried my best lu. i don't know.oh yeah, i will post some photo when in china after i finish my exam. =)

i am so grateful that u are always there when i need u. thank you. u are always there when i feel bad, when i am paranoid about some stuff, when i need someone with me.u always there anytime, anywhere. i will try to be happy like u. believe me,i am trying. i am happy,just that u didn't see. all i have to say is THANK YOU.

although u are not really helping, but at least u know what's in my mind just by a short time, at least i feel comfortable to tell u things, at least u made me smile when i am sad, at least u know u care. thank you. u know that i do 'LIKE' u.lol. u know who u are are la. =)

PS, i always being grateful about all my friends are with me. nothing special.=D
PS, perhaps this is the time for a long break?? i need a break. cause u are good in manipulating.
PS, i dont want to be paranoid,i hate being paranoid. so i want to be the one controlling. this is how much i can take.
PS, good thing about no strings and bad things about no strings is u don't have rights for EVERYTHING!
ps, i gonna figure out how the secret works. i gonna live with that, i am impressed about the law of attraction.