running, popping, and spinning.

suddenly i miss u so much.
the truth that u keep deny makes me stronger.
the things that i gave u,
u still keeping them in the place i want in to be.
is a sign, i know.
that is so sweet.


i miss everything.
i wanted to go back to the past.
at least the past is better than what i going through now,
i don't wanna face the reality.
i don't wanna face the fact.

just one night.
just give me one night to forget about all this bullshit.
just give me one more night not to face the matter of fact.
i will become stronger and feel better next morning.
i know i will..=D

i am not taking that risk,
cause i know that is not worth it.
u are not worth it.

i am letting it go if u really can realise that.



p/s thanks for giving me all this bullshit, making me think i am not the only one who did that. LOL. i don't hate u.
p/s thanks for being there all the time when i need u, my friend.u know who u are. thank you so so much. u know i love u guys. =D

my holiday start on Thursday, went out with my BFF to celebrate my darling sit wai's birthday. we had a lot of fun. ahaha..

u guys can go to waiyan or sit wai's blog to see the photo,i odn t have the photo. i think waiyan will just post in facebook??! maybe. ahah.
i want the AGM installation's photo la. MADA! go and get from Quek. haha.too bad Sze wei dont have it.hmm.

anyway, today went out with Kelly and waiyan. we had girls talk in Starbucks for like 4 hours.haha. had fun wei seriously, can laugh. haha. and i cant believe i actually told kelly that thing in bus stop wei. that's bad that her bus came so fast. if not we can talk even more. haha. BTW, kelly, that isnt gonna be like that anymore, now is gonna change. i got my evil plan.WAHAHAHAHA. remind me to tell u that ok?!haha

we are gonna have another girls talk again rite?! haha. we will stay up until 2 to talk on Thursday..hahaha..

hmmm, this holiday is goona be busy wei seriously.
Monday need to study at home. hope can study la.
Tuesday need to go meeting. smart ass, go make the meeting so early.tak pe.
Wednesday, still thinking, library??
Thursday, meeting,squash, swimming and girls night! Hurray~~
Friday, erm erm erm maybe go watch a movie??! anyone??

gtg people.LOL

p/s i do hope u are being honest with me all the time. easy??
p/s i decided not to be the victim, so i am fighting back! evil plan!!*good girl gone bad wei*

偶而抬起头 会看到无数颗星星
　　它守护着天空已经 千万个世纪
　　生命里 也存在一种类似的东西
　　那就是爱 永恒的延续

　　only love 爱是我最美丽的原因
　　像空气 自然而然就懂得呼吸
　　多珍惜 我和你有的这种默契
　　传递心中的温暖 和全世界分享
　　因为 真爱存在
　
　　如果可以 我想写段旋律给自己
　　别忘记 脸上要用笑容盖过泪滴
　　我确定 每一双单纯去爱的眼睛
　　说的故事 会更加动听

　　only love 爱是我最美丽的原因
　　像空气 自然而然就懂得呼吸
　　多珍惜 我和你有的这种默契
　　传递心中的温暖 和全世界分享
　　因为 真爱存在

　　用爱去探索 总能找到新的意义
　　我相信

　　only love 爱是我最美丽的原因
　　像空气 自然而然就懂得呼吸
　　多珍惜 我和你有的这种默契
　　就算未来还未知
　　记得把心打开
　　证明真爱存在

On this day of your life, Yuet May, we believe God wants you to know...

... that nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome is going to be.


You keep wanting to know how things will play out, keep asking to see the future. God doesn't give anyone the power to know the future, because life becomes maddeningly boring when you know everything upfront. So, instead of struggling, enjoy the uncertainty - to be alive means to not know.

above statement is what i copied from facebook. sometimes this really helping to lead me go through things.

not knowing what is gonna happen in the future so the only thing u can guess. knowing everything that will gonna happen will be a disaster, like only u can see and watch. so wat's the point knowing?

somehow, i also try not to plan everything, just follow what my heart, follow where it leads me to. sometimes i knew i had jump in to the conclusion that is actually not true, but i just cant help it.

felt totally hopeless and a little guilty. but i did listen to what waiyan said! ACCORDING TO THE LAW OF ATTRACTION in the book Secret, whatever u are thinking will happen in real life. if u think positive everything will turns out rite. but what if just hoping that happen, will it also happen since u think about that all the time?! that one waiyan didn't tell me. HAHA

this is the thing that we can not decide. Thank God.

sometimes, i just don't get it.

wait, most of the time.

things changed faster than i can predict, i tot it can last like more than one day, but at the end can not. i was hoping just one more day?! i know i will ask for more but why not have a try?!

i don't know how i gonna handle this anymore, is like very step i am taking is just wasting effort. i m just trying to keep it simple but i think people still can feel that rite?! i did realised that.

i am still lost. fighting for a loosing battle is it?! great.



OK. guess what am i saying?!


tada!

i am saying i fail preserve the milk in the room temperature.


P/S pls come forward to know the real story.
P/S i twisted it.

i am doing really good!!!
i am happy all the time right now!!!!
that thing doenst bothering me anymore.
so dont worry my friend!!

u know i can take care of myself, unlike u!!!!
so pls do remember what u had promise me.
trust me, i wont Forgive u if u Forget what u had promise.

dont worry anymore. i am doing allright.

peace..=]

i dont know why,
i dont know how,
i dont think this is gonna work out the way i plan to be.

i dont know what the F***k happen to me,
i dont know why am i so lost now.
i think i am just too stupid
to BELIEVE everything is true.

but somehow, that DOESN'T make sense!!

believe it or not,
i tried a lot of method.
i tried to let it be hoping something change?! but things doesn't turn out that way.
i tried to ignore everything, but that just keep on distracting me.
i tried to face it but somehow i cant accept it.

so at the end i decided to GIVE UP.
EVERYTHING that is related to it.
i can not just keep doing that again
if not i am getting more used to it..URGH..

i dont know how much that's gonna hurt,
but i think that is beyond what i expected.

p/s suddenly i miss Yu Hong.T.T
and i am seriously feel like telling everthing to someone just to gain a hug..>0<

p/s i am not emo. just PMS(i guess)

i do care about whatever u had said and i remember it. which i really hate it. i was trying so hard to hold back everything that might hurt myself but somewhat he told me to follow what my heart tell me.

i don't know this time is real or not, but it seems like i am the one who are waiting again..hmmm. somehow that's not worth it. isn't it?? i know what exactly what my heart tell me but i just dont wanna follow. wait, i think i did sometimes but this scare me. it really SCARE me!!

i didnt know that will be so strong, stronger than i tot it suppose to be. this remind me what happen last time. we started exactly like what happening now, and end it with some regrets. so i told myself this is not gonna happen again but too bad, it happen..LOL..

p/s 当每一个人都觉得他就是你的太阳，给你温暖，给你从早上起身所感觉到的希望时 ；同时他们也忘了，他们不能直视太阳，所以我不要做你的太阳，我只想要你快乐。