如果可以,我想每天這樣。
如果可以,我想保持那種感覺。
如果可以,我想我是不正常的。
如果可以,我想我是孤獨的。
如果可以,我想我是沒有朋友的。
如果可以,我想沒有人關心我的。
如果可以,請別把這些放在心上
因爲我只是發洩！

oh my goshhhhhhhh.....

i can't believe how fuck he and she is mann....my god..and can u ask he and she to stop it??!! damn fuck mann...i dont understand the language from a bitch keep on blah blah blah...non stop...my gosh..ask her bf to fuck her la..talk non stop..somemore that is useless one...no brain somemore..she is a fucker mann............shut up and dont ever do that again....if u do that again then i willl tell everyone who u are..and i dont know wat's wrong with his bf mann...also dont know how to use brain to think..and i tell u(i mean to the bitch and fucker)..dont try to challenge my patience...and fuck the hell off....

okkkk....i need chill pill....i do....
sorry if u dont understand wat am i saying...well..no one will understand..if u know wat and who am i talking bout then just put it in heart and dont talk it serious...i just release my stress....i can't stand them anymore if they keep on do that mann..is true..i just dont wanna fight with her..no use but i tell u..one day i am out of patience then too bad la...i dont knoow wat will i do when that day comes....




*to all scout...
i am sorry that i wrote
all that...but forgive and
forget it...just talk it
as a joke although that is
not funny...
forgive me..this is one of
way to release my stress..

hey guys..i didnt go to school today again..and i didnt go to the QM thigy also..
i got something to do so i can't go to school...
sorry mann..i mean for my friends..

u know wat?? when i am taking bath just now!! i relized something...that is about my friend with my another gang of friend..i need to write it in chinese..for those who dont know how to read then sorry for that la...


OH..well...
紫君的事情啦。。everyone knows that she grab her best friend bf..
换个角度想想看..我不觉得她做得都错..我的意思是他做的还没错的完..换做事你..你也会在爱前没有这样的理智吧..是的..你可以理智但..when u 逃避的话..u are consider betroying urself..that is worst than ur friend betraying u..如果我是他的话我也会跟他做的一样但不会是我好朋友...
（以上都是我胡言乱语但有些是真的啦...）

and i dont know why..pik sue they all SAID WANNA BE FRIEND WITH HER AGAIN but happen at the end?? they ignore her..she dont deserve that..she just do wat she wants( i think la.. but i dont know is it correct)...

and u know wat?? piksue they all said that she herself and chi kuan is really best friend..and wat pik sue said is "if she(chi kuan) just say sorry to us then we will be frineds again"...but i dont think she do so and that is no point for chi kuan to do so..i know that chi kuan didnt said sorry but she tried to hang around to us..but no one want to talk to her..

so how??she go to suki they all there lo...when chi kuan go there then pik sue they all start saying all those crap(i know i did also)...i talk to her bout that sometimes..when we go sunway or anyway la..i got ask her wheather wanna go or not..she said that she willl go and does just like a dog follow us go everywhere and no one will talk to her..so she dont wanna go..she does wanna have all those friends again..did u guys give her a chance??why u guys like to just look at ppl's negetive site..she just didnt one mistake..then u guys want to igonre her..who is she??she is ur friend and use to be best friend..how many years u know her and now u ignore her just a mistake she did...

so..wat am i trying to say is just forgive and forget of wat she did..i know that is quite hard but try lo...everyone did mistake..and u guys knowthat they cpl ad..then why not u guys just wish them and forget about wat she did and be friend again??

try to imagine if this goes to u!! how will u feel?? no friends..no talk no gossip between u and ur firiends..alot of secret that u can't tell anyone but u hope u can tell people but noone to talk to...no one to share happiness...try to feel how she feel...
think of her and think from her point of view...and think of all this happen on u...

sorry for those who dont understand wat happen and dont understand wat am i writing..but thanks for reading..just dont take it serious if u dont know this case...

tata..

人心难测， 没错。
开始看清了更多的事情。
了解更多东西，不知道比知道好些。
有感而发， 看清太多事情了。
背叛，到处都是。
朋友，陌生人，同事，家人，情侣，夫妻之间，每天都在发生。
好朋友，只是为了隐藏另一种关系的代号。
好朋友，通常都是背叛的那个。
好朋友，也会是背叛另一个好朋友的代号。
A君告诉B 君秘密的同时，可能也是在背叛着C君。
看着A 君欺骗B 君，也同时背叛C 君， 那滋味， 超难受的。
知道事实，未必是好事

hey...just shut the fuck off la...dont just act like that la..please la..make me wanna vomit only...is that any problem if u leave me alone...
altough i need a friend like that but is sure that is not u..u know whoo u are...

dont try to judge me mann..u know i hate it..expecially my life style and my opinion to something..that is another thing that i really hate it..

and another important thing..fucker can u just act like u really know me so much..please la..we just friend ok??!! friend!! u not really know me also..wat i said u can't just dont listen and u can't just leave me and let me go on only la..why u need to know so much?? make it clear ok?? we just friend...not best friend..if i treat u as my best friend i will not do that to u...if i treat u as my best friend..i will never explain with u wat happen..if u treat me as yur best friend..u will never go and ask me why i do that and why i dont do that..u should know...
u know who am i talking bout....and u know who u are...

that is all..i am damn fucking angry now...fuck u...go and say those things that is useless to me..






p/s...who am i talking is a guy..my god...fucker(imean he is)

hey..today i ponteng out went to sunway..yeah,,damn nice..we go sing k...after this time we need to work very very hard for our exam ad..my god...and i bought some exercise book today..haha..i tell u..i gonna finish up those two books before i go for my test..ha

and i tell u..that is no problem for being emo..see..that is one of the best thing in life mann..u dont how good to being emo that's why u tell me that i can't be emo..
that is nice..u no need to talk to people when u got no mood to entertain them..u can just leave ur brain blank and no need to think too much or u can no need to think at all..ok..sometime u feel that u are actually doing nothing and just day dream,..hahaa..

lalala...i dont know why all those ppl wanted to have all the thing,..wat i mean is..u dont have money then u want money..u dont have gf..u hope to gave a gf..
well..i dont know wat am i saying now..craping..haha...

i think that is all for today..haha..

ya rite..i go back to school today..i got my trial exam result back and that is not really i want to..i mean i aim high for my math and science but i can't reach which i target and make things morer wrost...my god..i know that i havent do my best to study for my exam..but i try to..T__T...

school hoidays were boring..i got nothing to do at home..when i go back to school..i felt that i got alot of presure when i got back my paper..my god..i still can't believe that..i got 60 something for my math mann...no way..

when i get back to school...i realized that i can't really comunicate to people like i did last time..means like they talking to me and ithink that they are talking rubish...think that they did use common sense to think before talk..i know i did that before...but i dont know why i got this kind of feelings..maybe too much presure by myself..dont know..

and one thing..when i got back to school..i realized that many people can actually do something that u unexpectable..if u are my close friend..u will know wat is that la...but is true..i can;t believe that ppl can just act in front of one's and act another personality to another one's...u know wat?? that is scary..

ok..that is too much i know..that is only of a this few days..

In true love,
there is no mountain too high to climb.
No river too wide to cross.
And most of all,
in TRUE love there are no ends.

Its true that when you meet
the love of your life time stops,
but what they don't tell you,
is that it goes extra fast afterward to catch up.

Love is like a jigsaw puzzle.
Only one person can find the missing peice.

The only true love is love at first sight;
second sight dispels it.

I know that you are not perfect
and nor can I claim to be either,
but please believe me,
when I say that I want to be by your side,
to hold your hand, to treasure you in the morning
and in the noon-tide, to be next to you,
to be held close to your heart now
and for the rest of my living years,
to comfort you, dry your tears and calm
your most frightening fears, to fight your battles
and show no shame to scream my love
for you out loud all over the land

You learn to like someone when
you find out what makes them laugh,
but you can never truly love someone
until you find out what makes them cry.

True love is when you have to watch a friend leave,
with the knowledge that you might never see him again.
But you know he'll be in your mind and heart forever...

It's true that we don't know what
we've got until we lose it,
but its also true that we don't know
what we've been missing on until it arrives.

A Friend's Love says:
If you ever need anything,
I'll be there.
True Love says:
You'll never need anything;
I'll be there.

True love is, when everything in the world is going wrong,
all you have to do is look at that special person and,
suddenly, everything in the world is right again.

愛♥

女人問:你什麼時候發現你不愛他了


當我覺得他太愛我的時候...男人答


那你什麼後發現其實你很愛他....女人又問


男人答:當我知道他不愛我要離開我的時候

my gosh...today i woke up around 8 something..then i go take bus to kl centre with my sis...she want to go back to college then i go 1u..then me missed a lot of bas..dengg...around 10.30 kelly call me that piksue and her take bus go to 1 u ad..didnt wait for me..wat the fuck..

then i reach 1u around 12 something..all of them wait for me mann...after that we go to neway, fucker..they all didnt go sing there also..wat da..is better i go with waiyan and kelly to have another room lo...

dont know when they all say want to go watch movie..huh??!!
soomething wrong mann...and sit wai dont know why like very mad only..then dont know why the atmosphere is like damn weird..me and kelly is like very blur lo..haven't get wat's going on..at the end they didnt go also..swt

after that we go back lo..today hang out is like very very very very very damn damn damn damn boring mannn..
waste my money..

this is few photo we took..damn cacat..


zhi meng wrote my name wrong already..wat da..




finally can take one pic with her..haha


two poser..haha...

see..i did told u..poser..haha




***boring day**

听了别人的爱情，发现爱情很复杂。

有些人很爱，却得不到爱。

有些人不懂得爱，却爱拖着一堆追求者，让他们放不下爱，很自私。

有些人不敢爱，自己给自己太多压力的人，再爱下去，会带着别人的压力一起溺毙。

有些人假假很爱，其实什么都不是。

有些人以为爱就是一切，忘了自己，也失去自己。

有些人爱久了，淡了，习惯了。

有些人很可爱，可是却没人懂得欣赏。

我本来以为爱情可以很简单。

简单的爱情应该会很美的！

u know wat...i think i fall in love with emo..i like the feeling of emo ad..no need to talk..no need to thnk..no need to entertain ppl..wahaha..so good to leave alone..i mean i just emo in school..i try to stop that..but i can't..so i dont care la..

well..i think tomorrow will going to 1U..but i think it will be quite boring lo..i dont know la..i just think so..i hate those place alot of people now..i hate noisy...just left m alone if posible..

i just dont know wat she is thinking nowaday..if u just like that guy just go ahead la..if u dont like that guy just dont give chance or hope to him la...wat the..u know how is that feeing if u kena reject?? i knew i did that before but i end it earlier than i plan to ...but i think u are manage to do that..my god..just try to think of people's feeling if possible... if u know who i am talking bout please be silence and recall ur memory that u did that before or not... and u know who u are..

bla bla bla..crap alot...sorry...

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omg...i just finish my trial today...my god..i dont know why i damn emo today after school...
when i saw him and that girl walking out to the school gate that time then i start emo already..dont know why la...

when i saw them walking out to the school..i was siting with waiyan..she is learning guitar from calvin(duck duck)...u know wat..guitar is fun altough i can't really play it porperly(i just learn only ma..)...wahah...i can't wait to have another guitar lesson with calvin..wahha...

today just watch wall-e with my friends..not bad la..
but got a little bit sien lo..quite cute la..

today is the 2nd last day of trial..mann..the math damn hard mann..i tot i can't finish..luckly that one i tembak one correct ad..hahhaa..
tomorrow is mandrin paper..aiyo..i can' imagine how hard it will be mann..
i dont wanna die..T__T
wish me good luck wei..hahaha..

i have a boring life every day..i think i need to go borrow alot of novel to make myself bz...

my gosh..damn boring now...i plan to go for midvilli to watch meet dave...and next week maybe go for 1u to siong k..wahhaa...just need to ajak the guys wanna go or not only...wat la...

u know wat??i had online twice but gabriel and that fui yao not there..i wanna ask u guys wanna go 1u or not ah..shit la..when u guys online?? T__T

nooooo mood already la...

i dont know wat to say..
just feel a little down..
blue..
emo...
just leave me alone when u think u can't really communicate with me..i am not trying to show my sadness to everyone and dont want u guys to pity me..
i just dont wanna talk...i just want the the whole world to be silence...

love is useless..that is not use to be hopefull this world anymore...

i just came back from the library..wow..raining just now...and i am alone in the bus...i miss u..i mean the heavy rain and the memory..well..i dont know wat u guys can get it or not..watver la..

to my friend kelly..
i dont know who is it feel..i dont know how pain is it..but i am a good listener..u can tell me anytime if u really can't take it...i can stop u to do that..and i know u have make decision..and i think i no need to teach u to do things..just remember..wat u have did are responsible for that...
that is all need to say..

to my friend chi kuan..
i can be ur friend again if u wan...but please dont expect me to trust u
like i did last time..i dont know wat u doing now..and i cant go and teach u to do things..but make sure that u know wat u doing and wat should u do..please control urself if u think that is over the limitation..
that is all i can say to u..

i fall in love with this design mann!!arhh...

I believe in the sun even when it doesn't show.
I believe in peace, even when chaos ensues.
I believe in good, even when evil lays rampant.
I believe in love, even when I don't feel it.
I believe in God, even when he's silent.

shut the fuck off mann....
why need to do things so complicated??
why everyone need to pretending like u dont know anything??
why everyone got 2 face?? why they need to be evil??
why are u do that?? i trying to treat u like my best friend but why u need to lie on me??
can't u just tell me evrything?? i can help u rite?? just tell me everything...dont lie ok...

u did know ur friend 'reple' u rite??..why the hell u look like dont care only..i know u feel damn guity now..but u can ty to tell everyone that u didnt do wrong rite??

fine...i dont know who u are now...just shut the fuck up...please..or u wan to tell me everything that u haven't tell me...u choose...

this is wat i had promise myself...

1. dont ever believe a person like i had did last time..
2. never ever have a pet bro and pet sis again..
3. do not treat a person like i treat 'you' again..
4. do not regret on wat i had make decision..[important]
5. do not waste time on wat i dont like..
6. i can't tell anyone if i really got a seret..[ no matter how u force me]
7. do not be a bitch [ means that i will not fall in love with that guy]
8. think clear before i do [do not make myself regret]
9. do not easily change my mind [important]
10...i dont know yet...i will write if i really got...haha

that is all i think..i will write if i really have..

On the opposite coast of sadness,
is something called a smile.

On the opposite coast of sadness,
is something called a smile.
But before we can go there,
is there something we’re waiting for?

In order to chase our dreams, we can’t have a reason to run away;
We’ve got to go, to that far away summer’s day.

If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh,
Because like a boat that opposes the stream;
we have to walk straight on.

In a place worn down by sadness,
something called a miracle, is waiting;
Yet we are still searching,
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring.

The warrior who awaits the morning light,
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall.

Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness,
only relying on the light of the moon;
We have to fly away with featherless wing,
just go forward, just a little further.

As the rainclouds break,
the wet streets sparkling;
Although it brings only darkness,
A powerful, powerful light;
helps push us to walk on.

♥

hey u know wat?? today is the last patrol we have..so bad..but i dont thnk that is fun for me...i got serious soat throut mann....die...

and wat i wanna continue is wat waiyan scould me bout wat i wrote in my blog yesterday..but i tell u is true..no one can change my mind or change anything that wat i had made up may mind...really..but if u can change wat am i thinking or wat am i made up my mind..u better watch out..i am gonna target u..maybe i had fall in love with u or i like u?? huh?? but now..no one can do that..hahaha...altough u r my ex..and u trying to come back to me..but u also can't change wat i had make up my mind...maybe la..but i know u will not do that..haha..for sure...

bla~~bla~~bla~~ crap alot...sorry...