wat i need now i just a person who really love me...wat i need is love...ahhhhh....wait lo...untill when??
i dont know..lalalaa....

boring...

i know wat waiyan trying to say on her blog..i know wat i am i doing now...i know wat should i do..dont try to change my mind or change wat am i thinking ok??!!i no need u teach me how and wat should i do...let me try my way...i know that u care for me..but i know wat am i doing..

i havent make up my mind uintill now...not sure bout that oso..i dont wat myself to regret after i make up my mind...i dont care wat people will say..no one can judge me anyway...but i still dont make up my mind yet..wait lo..wat i need is time...
wat am i talking now is bout the guy who have gf....i still thinking wanna be a bitch or not..maybe yes or maybe not...

wait and see wat will happen if i really did make up my mind to love him..i not sure yet..dont ever come and ask me who is that guy...i wont tell u no matter wat u use to force me...

u cant force me to do anything that i dont like..that is my last time to say that....

I have a passion for reaching out and keep myself available for
whatever God wants me to do, and wherever He leads, I follow.

I believe that if you have the desire and passion to do something, and if
it's God's will, you will achieve it in good time. As humans, we continually
put limits on ourselves for no reason at all! What's worse is putting limits
on God who can do all things. We put God in a 'box'. The awesome thing about
the Power of God, is that if we want to do something for God, instead of
focusing on our capability, concentrate on our availability for we know that
it is God through us and we can't do anything without God...believe Him...

HEY U KNOW WAT??i think i really fall in love with him mann...he is soooooo cute....
but i think like i can't really like him..ya..i can not like him...really..i dont know why i think like that..but i just dont wanna do it..

hey..i keept telling myself i cannot like him..ya..i can not like him although how cute he is..arhh..i dont know la...maybe he got gf??ya...so i cant do that..that is such a cheap and wat a bitch does...so..i am not a bitch and i don hope to be a bitch..so i cant do that..i dont know wat am i saying..lalala....

u know wat???i am bored...i need a new relationship...i dont wanna start it over and over again,...boring..boring boring..lalalala....hey..this few day i am in a good mood..hahaha.....dont know why...thank god for everyting...

Chris Daughtry Lyrics - Over You

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house

What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I felt as if I was in way to deep
Guess I let you get the best of meeee

(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!

And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know

I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally gettin' better

Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together

‘Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you!!!

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away

There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other's opened up
So did my eyes so I could see

That you never were the best for meee

Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know

I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting' better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together

‘Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you!!!

I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo
And I never thought I'd doubt you

I'm better off without you
And I never saw it coming
I should have started running

I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
The day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you…

today..at the 26 of july 2008 2.07o'clock and 41stsecond..i am really over him..this time is the true..without any hatred..without any hard feelings..without anything..i feel like i really did this time..i am proud of myself...and one thing..i dont know why i need so long time to do that lo..but nevermind..at the end i did it..thanks you..u know i am not say to u..say to him..thank you for evreything..

and i feel like i moved on to another guy..but i dont know wheather correct or not the feelings..i dont know..not sure la..but i think he got a gf??!! i dont know la..just let it be..hahaha

just let it be..lallala..

街边太多人与车
繁华闹市人醉夜
害怕下班等很久的车
排队兼带雨遮
一经信和暴雨泻
沿着长龙又不想

贴近些擦过的肩
发现看见那熟悉嘴脸
沉默对望在这几秒
亦有简单问好不过少
然后再次说告别
像重遇那天

多少往事甜在心头
夜雨触花这景致令我忧愁
望见她的身影已无法占有
我未有想过绝望看她走

分手两字情绝不留
为爱伤心的声线变了怀旧
爱不轰动了
什么都嫌少
最终这片段完了

专心看车外远境
嘈杂人群极知多
惹尘埃我却走失
遍寻脚印欠命中指引

如若结局是可改变
愿我好好爱她逼切点
重遇再散也够绝
但嫌路太短

心酸往事停在心头
我是再不要绝望看她走
即使告别仍旧守候
但我伤心的声线已变怀旧
什么都燃烧

害怕下班等很久
怀念很久也不够

wat da fcuk...u are the one who ask me to do that..now i just do alil wat i should do rite also can not meh??
u also did like that before wat??am i scould u that time..no rite?? fuck off....i am not gonna do that anymore..okay..chill pill...

but today is the last day of the monthly exam..haha..but i go no mood to to the last paper..science..dont care la..and i go back by siew teng and peiwern and mary car..wow...they are cool mann...really...they just talk talk talk and talk non stop one..chat bout manything just now..hahaha...funny wei...

neway..i am really lonely now..everyone couple now..u know wat??madeleine said she wanna intro a guy from bb to me..huh?? please la..i just feel lonly but not desperate ok..neway..thanks la madeleine..and madeleine..please dont slap me again wei..pain wanna...

exam la..i dont know wat's wrong with me..i got no mood to study..so sad..
and i think i feel more and more lonely everyday...T.T...
everyone got their own place to belong...when will i get...i dont know la..soon??when??next week?? next month??next year??wow...
hahaha..watever....

lonely... lonely....boring....boring...emo..emo...moodly..moodly....blue...blue....
lalalalalalalalalala~~~~~

i got nothing to write about now..ya..one thing..i am totally over you..is true..it's not gonna happen again...hahaha...next time...i am not gonna take so long time for it..trust me..hahaha...

They say people have their ways
And people stay the same
Accept the way it is
Accept that things don't change
Some people make it worse
Some people don't want to listen
In the end it all works out
In the end, they learn their lesson

What if I do nothing?
What if I just turn my back on you?
If I say nothing
What if I just walk away from you?
Walk away
I could never walk away from you

They say people have their ways
And people stay the same
Accept the way it is
I know that I can change

-Goldfinger-

Your Heart is Feeling Indifference

Your heart is pretty much on hiatus right now. You're not particularly interested in love, and you're cultivating a sort of romantic apathy. Whether you've been burned badly or you're just burned out, your heart is cold to passion. Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: A bit of cold heartedness Your current outlook on love: Detached and stoic - you try to analyze love from a logical perspective Your love life will improve if you: Open up a little. Stepping back can help you find peace with your emotions, but it can also make you repress them. Watch out for: Too much cynicism. Indifference can lead you down a dark path.

no mood..
dont ask me anything..
i will be quite..

you can say i admit it..
u can say all is my fault..
u can say i did all this to make you guys break up....
or watever..

but i didnt do that..if u wanna think like that i can't force u...
i dont wanna explained..i am really tired for that..
just leave me alone...
just leave me alone..
i think that is easy for you...just leave me alone..please...

hey i am not purposely wan...i am sorry..

i dont know she will tell her brother wan!!! T.T!!

and i am sorry...

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ok...yesterday..i went to the chs campfire...that is quiet fun la..
and i really damn bz yesterday..i went to my mum shpo then i go tuition..then i go campfire..hahaha...and u know wat??i missed the segi college carnival..urhh..my dad la..he want to go for golfing so cant go...

boring la..exam somemore...haizz.....i haven't study my geo la..shit...fail only la..no mood to syudy already la..haiz...

i really wanna scould her...arhh...ok..i tell u guys u dont know her one..she is a DU student...so jonanthon please dont act like u know who is it..i got no time for that..ok?? and u know wat?? she is like a bittch..is true..

hey you...
please..and all the past please forget bout it..dont tell me wat had happen last time..i know all that better than you..you dont know anything please get lost la..shut up la bittch...wat da hell !!!


so 8 for wat??!! that is my way and my choice..and please dont try to challege me...i will really kill you.. i am serius...as a friend u know too much and do too much..i know u care of me but please dont try to do something that i dont like..


and please la..u like him then go and pikat him la..wat's wrong with u.. dont use me and make a reason to see him ad talk to him..act like very care of wat happen between he and i..wat da hell...
get lost la bittch...


sorry..i really need to find a way to release my stress..damn stress la...i ganna be crazy ad...but wat i said just now is true...

sorry because ot update my blog..cause nothing to say..
but now, something new and that is really the 1st time i got this problem..
not a big problem..but is the 1st time..one form 1 guy tell me he likes me..wat da fcuk...but i got no feeling when i heard he said that to me...cause he is just a little boy..

neway..i got no feeling to him..and i dont think he is serious in it...and i just tell him to prove to me he like me..(i just wanna play with him la..i know i am bad..sorry..)then he just tell me wat he wanna do..wat da...be romantic a bit la..but nevermind, he is just a form 1 boy..haha...do that to another girl la..haha...

most but not all..people who is the 1st time ask a girl to be his girlfrind that time,wat he is thinking is to have the feeling and someone care of him..when he dont like or dont have the feeling to that person that time..he will just break up with her..that is wat i think...wat da...

` i am now not ready to get into a new relationship..if u really wan me to think..than u also must wait until i finish my pmr'...that is wat i told that guy...then..today he said he lost his phone and will not sms methis few day..i dont know true or not...wait..who cares..hahaha..i become damn evil nowadays..haha

美丽是恐怖的开始……

为爱横冲直撞的燕尾蝶和带刺自我保护的玫瑰在一座不知名的城市里活着。

夜里，城市，无数栋高楼，千万扇窗，有的亮着灯，有的灯微弱的亮着，有的忽明忽暗,有的只是一个黑色的窗口……生命在无声无息中生灭流转。

每一扇窗里都住着一只燕尾蝶，而带刺玫瑰花像蔓藤一样，悄悄爬满了整座城市，攀满了大楼…… 玫瑰花的刺还残留着血迹。

住在顶楼一只执著的燕尾蝶努力地挥动着翅膀，奋不顾身的扑向房间里开着的灯。不停重复的跌跌撞撞，翅膀被灼热灯管灼伤，单薄脆弱的翅膀断裂，燕尾蝶失去了平衡，轻盈却是沉重的飘落在地上，灵魂在离开躯体前还继续做着美梦。

勇敢执著追求梦想的燕尾蝶在城市里不停重复着破碎，而从不试图把梦想变成生活的带刺玫瑰继
续持着先天拥有的孤傲和天性生存下去。

玫瑰孤独高傲的爬满城市各个角落，最后却也躲不开枯萎的命运。一切慢慢开始腐朽，最后一片玫瑰花瓣掉落前，玫瑰花没想过自己会开始妒嫉燕尾蝶。

城市还是一片寂静，房间里，斑驳的墙上贴着一张开始腐烂的照片，画面已模糊不清。

从高空俯视已被玫瑰捆住的城市，开始存在着人，他们学会制作亮着灯的紧急出口告示牌。可是却还是没办法走出出口的生活着，没办法离开无奈的生活着，就算学会了释怀也没办法阻止昨天甚至上一秒后的下一秒瞬息万变的腐朽速度。

他们不知道他们不知道，就算他们知道了自己不知道，却还是执著的装着什么都不知道的继续不知道的呼吸。

他们重复着彼此的生活，重复着徘徊。他们相识却陌生的生活在同一样的天空下，空间里的空间，还存在的距离。
遥远却也是眼前……如果你曾找过紧急出口的告示牌。


如果有一天，你找到了真正的出口，其实恐怖也可以是美丽的开始……

A lonely road,
crossed another cold state line;
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find.
While I recall all the words you spoke to me,
Can't help but wish that I was there;
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah.

Dear God the only thing I ask of you isto hold her when I'm not around.
when I'm much too far away,
We all need that person who can be true to you.
But I left her when I found her,
And now I wish I'd stayed;
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired,
I'm missing you again oh no,
Once again.

There's nothing here for me on this barren road.
There's no one here while the city sleeps,and all the shops are closed.
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you,
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah.

Dear God the only thing I ask of you isto hold her when I'm not around.
when I'm much too far away,
We all need that person who can be true to you.
I left her when I found her,
And now I wish I'd stayed;
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired,
I'm missing you again oh no,
Once again.

Some search,
never finding a way.
Before long, they waste away.
I found you, something told me to stay.
I gave in, to selfish ways,
And how I miss someone to hold,
when hope begins to fade.

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line,
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find.
Dear God the only thing I ask of you isto hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away,We all need the person who can be true to you.
I left her when I found her,
And now I wish I'd stayed,
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired;
I'm missing you again oh no,
Once again.
♥